'28-04-10'

Wednesday, 28 April 2010

09:50
ARRGHHH..... things are acutally kicking in and making feel worse...like my life... my french speaking is next week and i hardly know what i'm suppose to be saying!! Good start right??.... i commented on his picture saying 'lei dim gai gum Q gah?'... but no reply... WTF man.... i just maybe wanted a short reply like a simily face or something but NO.... i'm so bloody confused....@.@ ..... Haih.... this quote i made says it all "为什么你要的东西就找不到呢? 为什么我忘记不到?...我越想忘记就不可能..." leaving me with no reply probably means..i don't know u so im not gunna reply.... but i wanna be friends with u so even if u don't know me then start knowing me then!!! I don't understand boys...why when he says "i want to PAKTUO" and "I wan a gf who is CUTE,PRETTY and WHITE" but i don't think i meet any of his requirements. Its just so frustrating to know that when i go back he still won't know me... I just want things to be right for ONCE! JUST ONCE! Everytime i write on this blog about him...its just makes me cry because i try to talk to him etc etc but no replies every time or that im just too scared to talk to him when he's online on fb (plus he probs will ignore me cos he doesn't know me) The least i want is just to be internet friends..we don't even have to go out when i go back, just internet friends is good enough! But if we could be more then Yeah!! i would go for it! But i dont think i should have such high expectations because it will just be an epic fail and then i would be distraught and probably cry about it. I'm just thinking, why did i like him in the first place, his malay and moral exam pictures show he's not a very good student but i dunno why... thats maybe the feeling of like/love which cannot be expressed and described. As i said before in my other posts that i want to let go but its just nt happening i think of him undescribeably (own word). i think to myself if i don't think and worry about him then maybe the tides will change sometime and it might go my way. So i try to into the liking of other boys which i talk to but it just doesn't work...i just don't have a feeling which i do when i think of maxboy.... its stupid to think that he doesn't know me and that i like him cos thats just STUPID right? But if u believe in love at first sight then you would propbably know the feeling. Maybe your thinking oh look at your love life its not as complicated as mine or maybe aww... but i don't want sympathy and im not trying to say that my love life is one of the best but this is the only place in which i can express it. I've asked my cousin bf to introduce me to him... but that just kinda failed.. he either forgot or maxboy wasn't at school which kinda shows that we don't have fate. So i probably should give up which i am trying ever so hard but just kinda failing at the moment but im sure after another couple of months i should be over him... hoping when i go back i don't bump into him! so its fine know just kinda knowing that he doesn't know me so doesn't wanna to friends so yeah im giving up totally... hoping the very best for me not only in my love life, but life in general, health and my upcoming exams!! x
aaaBOUT...Meeee
Nameee:: Wai Yee
Ageee:: 16BR>
Bdaii:: 20th August [Better say Happy Birthday]
Likess:: Shopping, MSN, Chatting, Gossip, Listen to Music, Having fun
Dislikess:: Liarss, Fakerrss, Typical Stuff
Meeee:: I'm just a normal girl.. i presume..=)
Who can be fun/crazy/weird at times and i mean at times... Not always!!